Turn down the lights

So to my very few readers, I had a sudden thought last night. Do you know anything about me? Well obviously you do other wise that is quite creepy and please get off my page, if I do know you, well you may find out more then you knew for you see this particular post is going to tell all about me

I was born in 96' with the name Lauren which was soon to be abbreviated to Lo

I have a sister called Jess and we have a love/hate relationship. We don't always get on and we fight but I think we have an understanding. I'm not quite sure what that is but we do


My parents divorced when I was 4 and my Dad went to go live in Australia so my mum has been left to do EVERYTHING by herself. I don't know if I say this as much as I should but my mama is my inspiration. She is such a strong women and I'm so grateful to everything she has done for me that I'm almost crying right now because of how much I value her and how much she means to me(crying right now) We have our song by Taylor Swift "The best day" that is OUR song and we play it and sing it often enough so everyone around us knows that. I have had and will have the best days with my mama

I moved schools twice before I got to the one I'm at right now which I love so much. They have such great opportunities and can make you realize anything is possible, I blame RMS for the fact that I have no clue what to do with my life and the ideas I have are crazy like I want to be an Olympian

On the 19th January I become a year older each year, this year it was 14. One of my favourite Olympic gymnast has her birthday on the same day as mine, Shawn Johnson

I love my friends. I'm so lucky that I have such amazing ones and I have had my friendships with some of them since reception

I look at the world differently to most people. Sometimes it is a good way, other times like in some lessons at school, I can get into trouble for it

I seriously belong in Texas. Something about that place screams Lauren Senior all over it

I think it is really hard to be able to stereotype me into a certain person. I suprise myself by some days being very princess like and others as I just want to listen to Spencer Bell so please leave me alone

I don't think I have ever grown up from 5 years old, maybe it's because my best friends are like that too but I love it. Childhood never dies, it is still there in your heart wherever you go. I also don't think I want to grow up. I still stay up late with my friends and eat coke and mentos together and try to create an explosion in my mouth. I still laugh when my pasta makes a squelching noise. I hysterically laughed when my teacher said virgin the other day. "I tried being normal. Worst 5 minutes of my life"

I LOVE LOVE LOVE Spencer Bell, 100Monkeys, Shai Gabso, Taylor Swift, Brad Paisley

I think this blog post is too long now

Family

Family, the one thing that will never go away. All your friends could turn their backs on you and you dread going to school, you know that when you get home you are with your friends.

I love my family. No doubt about it. From my cousins in Australia right down to my third cousins who live quite near. They are the craziest people in the world who can always make anyone laugh or just be like oh my gosh because that is what we do.

I've grown up around my family, seeing them almost every Sunday, going on holidays with them and speaking almost every day. People say that the Internet is a bad thing, but when you have family in South Africa you realise that facebook is very good for that.
My second cousin has twitter and a blog like me so we get to talk on that which I love so much

It doesn't matter if in your house you have 10 people or 3 people. It doesn't matter if your daughter is in an English boarding school and you are in America. Family is family, nothing can change that.

My family have given me the greatest opportunities and have given me a good education so I can live my life when I'm older.

It doesn't matter whether you have a nice house, lots of money or you are a big Hollywood name. If you have a family that you love and know you love them too, you are the richest person in the world

The stars are mighty bright tonight

I'm the type of girl that will never give up on something I want

I'm the type of girl that follows the crowd 95%. That 5% follows myself

I'm the type of girl that has dreams and goals

I'm the type of girl that people go to for trouble, yet when it comes to me, I am helpless

I'm the type of girl that is silly enough to think that friendships last forever, clearly they don't

Im the type of girl who will play a song over and over then eventually get sick of it

I'm the type of girl that will pull all nighters on my own

I'm the type of 14 year old that hasn't smoked, I don't want too either

I'm the type of girl that won't cry until I am sure I am alone

I'm the type of girl that would jump on stage at a Brad Paisley concert

I'm the type of girl that cried at a Taylor Swift concert

I'm the type of girl that is starting to realise who I am

Tonight

So right now in England it is exactly 00:14 and it seems everyone is up.

I'm thinking of staying up all night as I'm not doing anything tomorrow and I always pull and all nighter at least once every holiday. One of the reasons I like staying up all night is that I can be awake when the first ray of light shines through my windows and continue to watch it grow, welcoming the new day

Another reason is that tonight even though I am pretty tired as I had a sleepover last night, I just can't really be bothered to go to bed. I like going to be late like when you come home from a party at like 2am or you have been somewhere special and you see that it is already morning, I like that. But for some reason when there is no need for me to be going to bed late like now for instance or on a school night, I prefer going to bed still late but early if you get me.


I really hope I pull through even though I will be ridiculously tired the next day, oh well!

I will blog some more throughout the night or morning to switch my brain on, so for now, good morning

Where are we now?

Okay so I have been through a LOT since I started year 9 in September. I have had a few mini fall outs with friends, had friends be suspended, made new ones. The biggest one however was what happened in December.

It is way to hard for me to even go there in my head to describe what happened and I cringe away from the thought each time my memory brings me back. All I can say is that it ended up from 80+ people talking to me to about 20 who were actually nice and stuck by me.

It was the worst month of my life yet I was all to blame. I remember I had to go to the San one lunch break the day after it all erupted because I was on my own in ICT and 4 girls from my group came in and didnt say anything. I knew I was about to break down into tears so I went to the San, told them I had just thrown up so I would get to stay up there. I spent from 1:10pm to home time at 4pm, non stop hysterically crying. I relied on about 5 girls from my usual 80+.


It was then that I lost my best friend. My sister that G-d didn't give me as our parents couldn't control us together, my second family. Entirely my fault yet I couldn't get my head around why that would happen

But another friend had had a bad fallout so we stuck together. When we came back from Christmas, I was with my group back to normal but me and this one girl were sticking together like best friends which is what we were.

Then that girl went and made up with the one she fell out from and once again I was left alone. It happened again and this time I felt no she won't do that to me. She did.

On form spring I got asked, " who's your best friend these days, it seems to change a lot". I guess its not just me who notices it

All I want to know is where are we now in our friendship. I don't want to ask because I'm afraid of the answer. As the feeling of rejections happens again.

Antisemitism

I know right, big word for me yet it is one type of behaviour that I feel most strongly about.

Antisemitism is a term used to describe prejudice against or hostility towards Jews, often rooted in hatred of their religious/cultural/ethnic background.

The Hebrews have gone through a lot in their past, from Egypt to the Holocaust but we are being attacked more and more on the web. It is usually by people who don't know what they are talking about but they think they do. They pick fights with the people who are trying to stop this behaviour and just end up looking stupid and naive.

One case happened last night on twitter when a tweeter said that Muslims needed there own person to stop hate, then when one the antisemitism web owners tried to say that what they needed was Muslims to stop promoting hate, that person lashed out.

Before you try and pick a fight with anyone, please at least have a story as to why you are doing what you are doing.